This has been a really difficult week. A CHS student made the decision to end his life. Knowing a young man chose to end his life is excruciating. Even worse, is that I knew him. So it has been a very difficult week. Talking with students who have so many questions and ministry opportunities that have opened. Tonight was one of those. In fact it was a first in my ten years of ministry.
I have never had a group of students, with no connection to our church and not invited by a friend, who just showed up. Four guys, just randomly picked our church, walked up and said, “is it okay if we start going to church here?” They had no background in any church. As I got to talk to the guys one of them was good friends with the student who ended his life. He was searching for something. For me that is cool but not the amazing part.
All week I have been debating over whether or not to scrap everything for tonight, message and all and focus on suicide. Monday, I was going to focus on it. On Tuesday, I decided to go ahead with the original plan and work suicide into the discussion. Wednesday, I was thinking the same thing. One of our parents asked how I was going to handle it tonight? I told her the plan, but as the day went on I felt I really needed to address it. So I texted her back and she agreed. I did not know why, I just felt God wanted me to talked about it. So at 3:00 I decided to make the change. I had nothing planned, nothing ready but really felt this is what I needed to do.
When the four guys showed up, I was overwhelmed. I got to spend some time with the guys but at the end of the night one came up to me and said he was so glad he was here. He felt like God was speaking to him tonight. He had to have been, because I could not tell you what I said.
It amazes me how God shows up and works through our life when we simply allow him to be present in our life. It amazes me how he can take something so unspeakable and use it focus peoples attention on him.
God is at work in our life and the lives of people we come in contact with everyday. The true question, are we going to have our eyes opened to see him at work?